Some days are hard for me.....I don't like feeling vulnerable.
I think of the positives in my life....and the things that I am trying to acheive....I think of the things that make me happy.....I think of the good times that I have had.....I think of the people that I care about and love....I think of the talks and progress that I am making in therapy....I think of the effort that I have made to share and be close(which is hard for me)....I have kept an open mind and I am open to new possibilities.
Funny things....in therapy, I talked about the strangeness of people telling me that I am beautiful or hot....she laughed and said that I am a beautiful person. I told her that girls would email my husband and tell him that he is hot, and now that I am on SG, girls will email him and tell him I am hot!! She died laughing!!! She did tell me to be careful....you can feel really good from compliments, but using that to build up your self esteem is a dangerous and negative thing after a while...I will have to keep that in mind!
BTW none of these girls have emailed me, so I have not talked to any of them!
I did go to a "post-christmas" party tonite with Debbie for work. I came to a sharp realization when it hit me that I had nothing in common with these people. Just nothing in common. I am just differant.
I love Debbie as my friend, but she was the only one there that I have much in common with. She is my nerdy sci-fi friend. It was just a strange nite.
I think of the positives in my life....and the things that I am trying to acheive....I think of the things that make me happy.....I think of the good times that I have had.....I think of the people that I care about and love....I think of the talks and progress that I am making in therapy....I think of the effort that I have made to share and be close(which is hard for me)....I have kept an open mind and I am open to new possibilities.
Funny things....in therapy, I talked about the strangeness of people telling me that I am beautiful or hot....she laughed and said that I am a beautiful person. I told her that girls would email my husband and tell him that he is hot, and now that I am on SG, girls will email him and tell him I am hot!! She died laughing!!! She did tell me to be careful....you can feel really good from compliments, but using that to build up your self esteem is a dangerous and negative thing after a while...I will have to keep that in mind!
BTW none of these girls have emailed me, so I have not talked to any of them!
I did go to a "post-christmas" party tonite with Debbie for work. I came to a sharp realization when it hit me that I had nothing in common with these people. Just nothing in common. I am just differant.
I love Debbie as my friend, but she was the only one there that I have much in common with. She is my nerdy sci-fi friend. It was just a strange nite.
I've come to similar realizations and so have a few of my former co-workers.
Too bad we can't just work with people we like.