melancholycoma

_Loathing_


Some days.. (today, for example), I just wanna be completely numb. Comfortably numb, if you will. And rid myself of everything. Apathy at it's greatest.. or worst, whateva. (Half empty or half full???) HOWEVER, feelings are such complex things. I am thankful I have finally broken down and allowed myself to have them. It feels...differently fulfilling. Just not today. Make sense?

Sometimes I often forget that I'm unhappy and inch my way closer to happiness and/or contentment. But the realization of my true feelings never fails to slap be upside the face. I inch my way closer...only inches... only inches closer to something that is lightyears away.
...so cliche... *shuts up*

i part with these final thoughts to the one...the only....Shane. i'm glad you have so many "friends" now, i guess they do it all for you. i bet they know your middle name, your weaknesses, what cologne you wear, and your :real: personality, huh? they know everything that makes you tick, and they'll know just how to look into your eyes when you just need someone to understand.

-Yours Truly