melancholycoma

_Random lyrics_

Inside my heart
There's an empty room.
It's waiting for lightning;
It's waiting for you

There is the splendor of this
Secret inside of me
And it knows that you're no stranger,
You're my gravity

My hands will adore you
Through all darkness, and they will
Lay you out in moonlight
And vent your name

For I am wanting, and...
I am needing...
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Didn't get the job. Fuck.

Umm.. looks like I'm going to take a stab at becoming a trusty employee of good 'ol Subway (the home of Jared!). ::sigh::

I did my time in the sub creation business. Rah. I don't wanna go back.. ::whines::

I need to make an apointment to get my kitty cat un-sexed... aka "fixed" ... remember kids, having a gender is...
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Bad ass rainstorm today. Got drenched. Drove through puddles. Fun fun.

...this weather is just.. strange. Not Yuma, AZ weather. I'm a stranger in a strange land. Rah.

Tomorrow is the JOB INTERVIEW. Ahhhh, ridiculously nervous. But.. I suppose it's normal - considering how badly I need this job. So much depends on it.

I hate pressure like this.

It's 6:11 a.m. I have absolutely no reason to be up. In fact, I haven't slept yet. Too giddy. Too entirely giddy.

I wanna be a suicidegirl. That'd be neat. Yea.

I saw the E! True Life on Jenna Jameson last night. It made me want to run out and become a pornstar. Only half of me is serious.. but the truth still remains the...
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Aye. For 3 nights straight I've been having the strangest dreams. Everything from being captured and held hostage in the mall by skinheads.. to being eaten by large whales.

Bought air freshener today. Woot. Fun.

Job interview on Thursday.. ayeeee! So immensly nervous. Cross your fingers for me. Please. Thank you.

Sometimes the thing you run from is the thing you run to.

Gotta love human nature.

martin gore doing nick cave's "loverman"? are you kidding me? the man just becomes sex completely in the goddamn song.

"l is for LOVE, baby
o is for ONLY you that i do
v is for loving VIRTUALLY all that you are
e is for loving almost EVERYTHING that you do
r is for RAPE me
m is for MURDER me
a is for ANSWERING...
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My head hurts. I have a headache. You'll never know how to properly sympathize with a headache victim until you've had one yourself. Wait, not that I want sympathy.

DON'T PITY MEEEEEEE!

I would go to sleep but I have to wait for my roommate to get home (aprox 2:00 a.m.) to do the grocery shopping. Yea.. I guess you could say we live with...
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_Loathing_


Some days.. (today, for example), I just wanna be completely numb. Comfortably numb, if you will. And rid myself of everything. Apathy at it's greatest.. or worst, whateva. (Half empty or half full???) HOWEVER, feelings are such complex things. I am thankful I have finally broken down and allowed myself to have them. It feels...differently fulfilling. Just not today. Make sense?

Sometimes I often...
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I must admit, I have a weak spot for you.

However, I'm afraid to face another shade of you.

That's all. Promise.

Goodnight.

people confuse trusting someone with "the faith you have in them trusting you."

life is a nice way of saying, "the ability to choose what to copy." that's really all humans do. everything else is justification for choosing. the concept of originality is about as varitable as religion. what's worse is that people gauge life by how much you affect other lives. If someone lives...
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There was a wickedly cool sand storm here last night. It was awesome.. kinda spooky.. but awesome. Oh joyus desert weather.

so what's up with the emo scene? jesus man... all these romulan haircuts... i'm a stranger in a strange land. i feel like i should either:

a. cry
b. become a pseudo-intellectual
c. get some bad tattoos
or
d. buy a man-purse, wear horn-rims,...
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