melancholycoma

I'm off to yet another stimulating day of work. Ha.

I'd rather take a bullet to the head any old day.

::vanishes::

ARGH!

Slipping into a freshly cleaned sheeted bed (did that make sense?!) is one of the best feelings in the world.

I have a sick kitty!

I need a haircut.

As of late, I've been blindly choking on reality. Such a bitch.

Home. Tired (well. slightly fatigued. I've been worse) Restless and bored. Oh whatta night.

I want a new job. I can suffer through this one for a little while but other places are BOUND to start hiring for the winter (visitors) season.

The system at work is shot. It really has left me quite confused. I can't figure out what weeks count on each paycheck....
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I find it amusing that such journal sites like livejournal, deadjournal, caleida and greatest journal ALL LOOK IDENTICAL! The only thing that differs is the color scheme. Can't you get a tad more creative with the layout too? Hmm.

Although I give LJ mad props for their new layout for it makes for better navigation. Taking the initiative! Woo!

... bank call on Monday. I'm...
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_Paper Fist_

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security purposes.

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Got trashed last night. Foo foo drinks.. yea, I'm not hardcore seeing as those drinks are my specialites. Whatever gets the job done. (Tolerance is important too).

Went with Krista, Meghan and Kathy (sexxxy porn star look-alike).

Meghan was all up on me.

Kissed her. Twice. No "in depth" kisses. Just..kisses. Make sense?

I was THIS close :: holds up index finger and thumb ::...
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_Suffocation_

Last night I spent a lot of time thinking. Just thinking.."how am I gonna DO all of this????" It worries me so much. I feel like I'm dangling; at the end of my rope. Seriously. It's a suffocating feeling. I evaluated my options. Each and every one of them. And I came to a disturbing conclusion. I have but 2 options. Only 2. Do...
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What I like.. someone just asked me this. Well, more precisely.. what gets me "hot". Er.. yea.

Here goes:
kisses on my neck, tattooed necks, widows peaks, sarcasm, wit, honesty, piercings, eyes, eyeliner, glances and smirks, trailing fingers, lightning/electrical storms, "love bites" a.k.a hickeys (hidden..shhh, it's our little secret. ), hair pulling, sexual spontaneity, the taste of blood, watching you quiver, ambulance sirens, sleezy hotel...
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I have an interview at the bank on Monday. Pessimism is consuming me. I'm not at all giddy about it and all the while so much depends on this interview. I hate my current job.. argh.

I'm having trouble finding a server that'll allow me to upload a fairly large picture (for a background on LJ). Damn you, servers.

All I want is a decent...
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been crying a lot lately. for reasons unknown. well.. ok, if I really poke at them long enough I'm sure I could figure it out. Too time consuming. So I'd rather stay in my "i don't know what's wrong" confused bliss.

I fucking detest my job... well, my boss. FUCK FUCK FUCK. I feel myself going sour.. becoming ultra bitter. It bothers me because I...
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this is the first time in awhile (in my ilfe, really) i have had nowhere to go. you know, it really is a shame that people do not pay attention to anything unless it directly involves them. that is a good way to miss lots of lessons. a person like me could scream something valuable, but if you did not hear your name, you would...
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