I wasn't going to post about this- but fuck it, I have all of three readers (hello!) and I'm really enjoying this blogging. It's helping calm my mind, stop me chewing it all over.
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I am an excellent sleeper, and a non-napper. Provided the clock is past 11 pm, I can curl up in any form of space and sleep deeply until morning. I... Read More
so having braved up and accepted that my mental state might be on the outskirts of conventional, told the doctor about it and been advised to deal with it using methods such as uh... positive mental attitude and exercise, i've been feeling a little lost.
it's taken me 7 years to even admit that i had a problem, and it's built up in my... Read More
i missed my doctors appointment the other day- something about living with a fuggy head which makes you forget everything. like putting money away (and then it gets stolen), like a doctors appointment (so the receptionist gives a lecture on how many millions are wasted each year waiting for people), like turning the heating on, or off, like turning the oven on, or off, like... Read More
Wow, thank you for that, it means a lot to know that someone else out there understands how shit I feel right now.
Funny, I was referred to the Mood Gym last Thursday too, it's pretty good so far.
Good luck with the doctors tomorrow hon, I'm still refusing medication because I feel I need to address my issues rather than just take a pill to make me feel better, but that's just me. I also realise that if I don't start feeling better soon, meds will be something that I may need to consider, if only to give me a little bit of positive energy to enable me to address said issues.
Do what i did at work and get people to paint swear words on the wall take a picture and then at a later date you can smugly claim that you wrote cock on the wall.
nearly ripped myself open tonight, but didn't. managed instead to go for a forty minute drive to nowhere and smoke 12 badly made rollies. i'm happy with that.
been doing more of the mind gym stuff that i put in my previous post. it's coming back with dangerously high levels on every section so far; that's anxiety, stress, low confidence... Read More