melancholia

the past few days haven't been so good. i am struggling with the idea that i am innately selfish for wanting things, and the fact that i care too much for other people to satisfy my own happiness.

in actual fact i am feeling tired, emotionally drained and physically sick at things that i make myself read which only make my head feel worse.

maybe i put too much importance on myself for believing that people need me around. maybe if i left, people would just adapt and carry on with life as normal.