oh angst.
can i even be bothered???
perception is such a tricky fucker, one minute i cannot see anything but black fog, the next i'm dancing in rainbows. makes my head spin.
fuckityfuckfuckfuck
Piss List
* driving my car badly, all day.
* not being able to help you
and...clearly upsetting you in the process
* not knowing what you're feeling about last weekend
and...knowing i have no fucking right to either
* still getting stupidly jealous about nothing
* being back to having no friends.
* my dogsbody, exhausting, underpaid job
* having sibling spats with my landlord
* being broke and wanting everything
* being fat, and yet too lazy to go to the gym
* not wanting to meet up with people because i'm too fat
* fucked up weather that prevents allotment time
* my fucking fucking head
* and...generally proving myself to be a three year old child
Kiss List
* deciding if no job comes up in the next 12 months, i'm jacking the lot in to run my own business
* deciding come June, I'm going to run my own online business as a trial for the above point
* running one successful Rewind event today (only four more to go!)
* being asked to co-ordinate my own project, with 1000 budget
* being asked by the market manager to co-ordinate this Christmas's Bizarre Bazaar
* my kick-ass, exciting, experience grabbing job (double edged sword)
* deciding to not get close to people; so as to save the pain of when i inevitably hurt them.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EdqMxN3cw18
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MVpJVZO4ZLA
can i even be bothered???
perception is such a tricky fucker, one minute i cannot see anything but black fog, the next i'm dancing in rainbows. makes my head spin.
fuckityfuckfuckfuck
Piss List
* driving my car badly, all day.
* not being able to help you
and...clearly upsetting you in the process
* not knowing what you're feeling about last weekend
and...knowing i have no fucking right to either
* still getting stupidly jealous about nothing
* being back to having no friends.
* my dogsbody, exhausting, underpaid job
* having sibling spats with my landlord
* being broke and wanting everything
* being fat, and yet too lazy to go to the gym
* not wanting to meet up with people because i'm too fat
* fucked up weather that prevents allotment time
* my fucking fucking head
* and...generally proving myself to be a three year old child
Kiss List
* deciding if no job comes up in the next 12 months, i'm jacking the lot in to run my own business
* deciding come June, I'm going to run my own online business as a trial for the above point
* running one successful Rewind event today (only four more to go!)
* being asked to co-ordinate my own project, with 1000 budget
* being asked by the market manager to co-ordinate this Christmas's Bizarre Bazaar
* my kick-ass, exciting, experience grabbing job (double edged sword)
* deciding to not get close to people; so as to save the pain of when i inevitably hurt them.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EdqMxN3cw18
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MVpJVZO4ZLA