mei

went to my parents' house for dinner, for my birthday. got some birthday money, which helps the finances. and the big birthday present was that they told me that i don't have to pay them the money i owe them.. $1400 or so. not a bad present, all told. not being as much in debt is a good thing.

drank a bunch of wine last night.. i forget how much i like to drink red wine out of the bottle, sometimes. my sister came to visit me.. i'm trying to fix her up with one of my friends, because she has no taste in boys on her own. i mean, to each their own, but she tends to go for stalkers and drug addicts. most of them are dumb, too. silly girl..

i watched a dance concert tonight. they always make me feel so lazy. i love to dance, but i never do it.. i 'specially like dances where one stomps a lot. i should really be more active; i need to get back into yoga, if nothing else. i had really good balance for awhile - it's all leaving. it'll come back with a little practice, though.

i weeded and cut our front yard the other day. well, some, at least.. it was fun - the ground was wet enough that the weeds came out easily. lots of the roots snapped, but that was ok.. there were several big weeds that i pulled out - weeds up to my waist, that had three or four inch long roots. it's amazing how a plant can sustain itself on either so little root, or for some plants, so much root that they don't seem to need. for cutting the lawn, because it was so long and because we don't have a lawnmower, i used a weed-whacker. bzzzzzzzzz.. it felt really destructive, which was kind of neat. i don't get to do things that feel destructive very often.

really not much else - i'm tired and feeling boring today. i like to feel really actually tired.. like my hands feel heavy and i want to go to sleep as soon as i get into bed. it feels so much more worth it to go to sleep in that instance. i'll maybe watch a movie and then i can sleeeeep.