mei

decision mostly made: between real tipsy and drunk on friday, and i'm going to indulge on saturday. i'll have three and a half days to recover/study, so i think i'll be fine. and i'd kick myself if i missed the crazy fun, even though it's never as crazy as i think it's going to be. i'll go out shopping tomorrow and find something costumey.

my adviser's going to get back to me with his final corrections by noon tomorrow. then i correct, get his signature, make copies, and turn in. what an adventure. and then i get my laurels too.. they have little fake laurel leaves that they give you when you turn it in, so you can wear them around.

so that means i should work on my german presentation tonight, but that seems so mundane. i should do it anyway, though.

i've been nervous all the time lately. short of breath and dizzy of stomach. i'm not even all that nervous in my brain, but the physical part makes me feel like i should be. i hate this feeling so much. i think that i'm broken in terms of anticipating things - i can't do it effectively. as soon as it's close enough to be real, i start worrying about it so much that it doesn't sound like fun anymore. turning in my thesis and partying and commencement all sound like that to me. it makes me just want to pass out or something.

i'm buying new shoes tomorrow.. they're more platform boots.. the ones i have now are suede, and the ones i'm buying are all thin vinyl. they're nice. yay! it's so exciting!

image of the day: sun reflected onto the wall through a glass of water. folds of rippling light.