mei

i am jack's overwhelming sense of academic guilt.

why oh why do i procrastinate so much?

i'm interested in what i'm doing, really i am. i want to get work done. but i waste time. and more time. and more time. and i do nothing. and i continually kick myself for it.

i sat in my office for almost four hours tonight.

i edited two pages. two fucking pages.

i promise this'll all be over soon, peoples.. two more weeks.. actually, 14 days, 12 hours, and 47 minutes. not that long, is it?

i guess it has something to do with running out of medication. see, i run out of meds, and it makes my brain fuzzy. fuzzy brain can't remember to call the pharmacy. brain gets fuzzier. still no pharmacy calls. so i've been without my drugses for maybe a week. it makes me strange. it'll be eeeeenteresting to try to go off of them this summer.

i'm still going to tell my boy that he should keep the site blocked most of the time, though... i do need to work as much as i can..

infor-mei-tion: when i get an itch on one of my arms or hands, i bite it instead of scratching it, usually. like a puppydog.