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cooking dinner.. garlic spinach, and ginger-curry chicken. mmm.

watched the landscape inside of a wine glass for a couple of minutes last night. tipped it up to take a drink, and ended up transfixed by the condensation, silhouetted on the surface of the wine. outlines of mountains, hills, all colored like the orangey pink part of a sunset. my fingerprint became a lake. then i took a drink, and watched as it all shivered and rippled away.

i have a bellyache. it's too bad that being a girl, while having distinct advantages, also comes with disadvantages like cramps. ouch.

i need to go to the ocean sometime soon. i'm feeling too cynical lately. you can't be cynical at the ocean. i don't mean that you can't be cynical at the beach, 'cause it can happen anywhere. but you can't direct cynicism at the ocean. it hasn't done anything to deserve it. it just sits there, majestic. tide rises, tide falls. and i am so tiny in relation to that. maybe tomorrow.

i start my job tomorrow. yay. let me reiterate that. yay. it's all excitement about my new job here. so excited.

*sigh* i'm such a whiny crybaby sometimes. it's better than being homeless. i've gotten spoilt.

i'm going to start going back to yoga. i'll find the money somehow. if i'm not going to take medications, i need to have some exercise in my life, i think.