mei

i went to the nude beach today. there are so many different kinds of people there, and it's awesome! there were three deeply mahogony colored men, maybe mid 40s, in baseball caps and sunglasses and nothing else. one of them had a big belly, but they were all in ok shape. they looked like they went there often. there was a pale man and his pale wife with a little bitty baby in a blue diaper swimsuit. i felt sorry for the baby, as the man stood ankle deep in water and washed the sand off of her - that water was really cold! there was a group of young men playing soccer. they had both shorts and shirts on. they said hello to every pretty girl that walked by. there was a slightly chubby freckled girl with her hair in pigtails. she looked like she should be on an 80s tv show about hillbillies of some sort, and like her name should be bobby sue or glenda jane. she was naked, but somehow her slightly drunken boisterous attitude transcended nakedness. there was an old couple playing in the water, splashing each other until they settled against each other and cuddled for a second. it made me think that i want to have that, when i'm old. the confidence to sit on a nude beach, and a lover to splash. there was a group of teenagers or early 20s types, in swimsuits. they all seemed slightly embarassed, like they were pretending too hard that anyone naked didn't actually exist, and no they were not looking at the naked people. one girl went into the water, and made a big show of squealing about its frigidity. there's something about how people act on a nude beach, it seems to strip back part of the brain so you can look in and see either fear, apathy, confidence, or joy. among other things.

we took my friends' new puppy. its name is mikishiko. that means mexico in japanese - they thought it was funny, because you can say "mehiko" in japanese, which seems to make more sense, but they don't. it's a labrador malamute rottweiler wolf mix. it's going to be a big, beautiful dog. right now it's a lazy spoiled little puppy, but it's so goddamn cute! i'll post pictures sometime soon.

i wish that there weren't so many mosquitos. i'd sleep outside. as it is, i'll sleep upside down with my arms out my window. mm. cool night.

The wind in the trees sounds like the ocean would, were it made of leaves. Made of medium-sized pieces that all clatter against one another, instead of molecules that meld together. It's dark out, so I can't see the leaves, but I know that branches are nodding chaotically. The sky is clear and dark, like grape soda. it's speckled with little carbonation stars. It's just slightly too light out to see very many stars, but they're still there. It's almost nicer than out in the country sometimes. Out in the mountains, sometimes the sheer infinity of stars is scary - overwhelming. Here, there are just enough to be comforting, and you know that the rest of them are out there. Just hanging out, wishing you well, even though you can't see them.

i got on the trampoline the other day. i can still do all the flips i used to be able to do - which is exciting. especially front flips and roundoffy-thingies. yay!

we need to clean the house. it's full of beer cans and obsolete schoolwork. meh.

ok. i'm smiling now, so i'll go. goodnight!