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Monday Jun 02, 2003

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our card was declined today. we have $14 and no prospects. probably we'll either move back in with my parents or my boy will join the military. i have a bunch of jobs to apply for and absolutely no hope that i'll get any of them. i have this strange feeling as though i've stepped out of my body and i'm looking at myself, thinking "this is so sad." like i'm looking at myself as a bird that's somehow ended up in the house.. flying at the windows, hitting her head on the glass, scrabbling up the walls. thinking "we should just try to get this poor thing outside, because if she does anymore damage to herself we'll have to put her out of her misery." not that i'm in that depressed of a state, that's the out-of-body me talking, not the actual me.

ok. nothing really to say..

i've been avoiding responding to people because i can't effectively comment on other peoples' lives right now - too wrapped up in my own. i feel pathetic.
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siara:
.. thanks for your tips on the hair dye!! i have tried that brand and it worked really well.
... i hope you are feeling a little happier today!! smile .. when i am feeling really sorry for myself i just compare my life to people in Iraq at the moment.. some of them have had their entire familys killed and houses and everything totally demolished.. soo sad! .. it makes me feel stupid for feeling as though my life is bad!
kiss
Jun 3, 2003
r_dominique:
you're not pathetic... you're just having a rough time. lots of people all over the place are in the exact same boat as you, due to this stupid economic slowdown.

it's not your fault. as for moving back in with the rents, take it in stride. sometimes you just do what you have to do in order to get by. jst don't forget to take care of yourself while you're at it... or you will go crazy.
Jun 3, 2003

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