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I wish I could construct things out of bits and pieces and use my magic to beguille them into reality too but it only works on people. Often only on folks with a little magic of their own, which is how I like it anyways.

Sounds like you're enjoying some good solid, you time. yay. Nudity makes me smile and blush especially when it's my own, I feel so free and so goofy at the same time. Even goofier than normal and that's quite the statement.

I've been trying to work myself up to going to the nude beach in Vancouver. The weird thing about beaches in Vancouver is that people never swim. I'd never imagined that people would go to beaches and not swim until I ran off to school there.
Anyway, I'm really comfortable being naked around other people. I did stand on a downtown vancouver streat corner naked for a "we'd rather go naked than wear fur" protest, after all (www.veganvoices.com). But I feel a bit squeamish about seeing other people naked sometimes. Well, more specifically, men. I just lack a context for male nudity because I'm not a man and I don't consider them to be objects of desire either. And they're kind of funny looking. But I'm working on it. We'll see. I won't be anywhere near that beach until August, and hopefully by then I'll have worked it out.

I wish my brokeness and joblessness was so utopian. Please enjoy enough for me too!
I packed up more stuff today. Books. aargh. I think that I shall start sending stuff into purgatory / storage soon, and give my two months notice to landlord tomorrow. shluff shluff shluff.
Portland would be neato keen. I might head over there once I finish chapter two -- I'm heading to Boulder to visit best friend in July or August. ho hum. I want to be assured of a job, or at least on class before I go anywhere. nuts.
It would be so ultra keen if you read my first chapter. No one has escept my advisor. I thinks it is fun. And not too dry.
Listen, KittyKat, have you read Nightwood??? That oughta be a first on your summer reading list, says I.
Try to eat some watermelon, too. and have either a seed spitting contest or a rind fight.
Back to Adorno and Horkheimer. They are calling me with their little teutonic accents.
ciao...

hey hey pretty lady! i'm glad the sun is shining where you are. sending you smiles.

silly girl - she missed out....

yea.....I think there is a big difference in where your heart and your libido may lie as to gender and I see nothing wrong with nurturing both...

as I learned last summer: get dumb on the rum!

I tend to think that nothing happens when you're drunk that you wouldn't want, deep down, to happen anyway. allow for exceptions under specific cercumstances. but at the same time, love and libido aren't always running hand-in-hand -- it's stellar when they do, but you can't count on it.

regardless, and quoting, well, a movie, HAVE A GOOD TIME ALL THE TIME. you figure out what that means to you.

you're not pathetic... you're just having a rough time. lots of people all over the place are in the exact same boat as you, due to this stupid economic slowdown.

it's not your fault. as for moving back in with the rents, take it in stride. sometimes you just do what you have to do in order to get by. jst don't forget to take care of yourself while you're at it... or you will go crazy.

Hey. I bartended at a big Rum festival last night. If I never smell rum again, It'd be a-ok. I also stole big Sailor Jerry posters and t-shirts.
So much for higher education--the $140 bucks in my bank account just ain't gonna cut it...

One them Uri Geller bent-like spoons! You have done this rum-Coke thing before, if I recall aright.

Hey, a lot of people on here might like to see you get your clothes weed whacked off.

worrying about money absolutely sucks. it is the root of all my stress right now.

i think of people watching like this... they look distant because each one is moving in his her her own little world, thiking abou the rest oftheir life. when you see them on the street you see people in transition, to home, or work, or play, or task, the point being that it's only the barest sliver of their existence.

sorry

DO NOT CHANGE for a job - you will regret it forever...yes, it was rude for them to not contact you and tell you that you were a non-hire.......you just need the right match...my secretary has purple hair and two visible tats...screw everything else.......she does a dman good job - even if she stick out in my rather conservative law firm

I wish I had a decent job to give you. I wish my company had enough money in it to hire anyone, which it might if suckerass clients actually paid.

i dont think dressing up to get a job is really selling out. i dress up in full suit whenever i go meet with potential clients. i guess i just could care less what i wear in general. plus, my suit rocks. you can always find a way to look conservative enough to get a job, but still rock out.

or dress up to get the job and then when you have it wear whatever the fuck you want.

What um, does one sing to the sun?
"Puff the Magic Dragon"?

thanks tiger, it went really well and I had a good time so we'll see from here. I hope those people call you back, did you throw any dust at them to beguille them or we're you just your normally stunning and provacative self.

*winks, backflips,(poof) disappears*

I don't believe that when you're really poor you need a vacation most. When I've been really poor, I've been able to make a vacation out of any time alone with my baby. When I've been really rich (like during the dot-com boom when I was making tens of thousands a day), I needed one the most, and nothing I could find was good enough for how rich I thought I was. The best suite on the cruise ship wasn't good enough -- we should have booked a better ship!!! When I got poor (or middle-class) again, i began to just enjoy a weekend trip to a rock concert with a pair of backstage passes, $40 worth of mushrooms, and my boss paying for the shitty Motel-6 style hotel. That's been the most vacation we've had in a few years and we've loved every one.

Oh (i never finish these things in the first post) -- nothing moves me mroe than the ocean at night. I romantically dream that rather than dying, I'll just drift off in the under-tow on enight, and live forever in the ocean under the moon.

very descriptive...sounds like your having a good time...i wish it would stop raining here...

what a beautiful journal entry.

Congrats!! My sister just graduated and I need to get her a graduation gift. I'm thinking she could just use some bucks!! She, too is on a job hunt.

Hey, what day does Ulysses take place on?

I'm reading a book called "Yeats is Dead!" right now. It is written by fifteen different Irish authors, each doing a different chapter. It's about this guy who has a copy of Joyce's unpublished final novel called Yeats is Dead and they keep making references to Bloomsday, but I don't remember when it is.

Good luck in advance on graduating - would still like to read your Joyce paper! Hope it was well received.

I love your pixs They really stand out and are amazing!!! I would love to see some Black & White photos of you!!!! More PLZ!!!!