meha

So im listening to this mix cd that this guy I use to date made me. i know he still loves me. But he is in the air force (not that theres anything wrong with that, it just kinda makes them their own breed in a way... Too hard to explain) Anyways, I kinda felt like he just wanted a wife, well not just a wife cause we have dated for years. but like, I feel like, I dont know. I just dont want to live in someones shadow all my life or feel less important. Also, a big thing with us is that he didnt like body mods. (which its a little late cause I cant just wash em off) and it was kinda like, "I could never be with someone really modded..." And thats what I like. But, Its soo hard to be alone sometimes, ya know? Oh well. Ill stop rambling now. lata