i haven't blogged in a while and i'm really fucking bored right now so i figure what better way to relieve some of the boredom...
let's start off with life in general...
things are ok
that's it...just ok
for everything negative that's been going on there's been an upside to it which hasn't made things better, only evened it out...hence the "just ok"
i have been upsetting myself lately but it's mostly just stupid nonsense and for fear of sounding emo i'll spare the details of it for now.
something completely different....
i'm generally very quiet in chat unless a few select people are in chat but i'm noticing lately that i'm more talkative. it's not necessarily because i'm being more outgoing but because different people are talking to me now which i kinda like because a) i'm kinda shy and won't normally talk to people unless they talk to me first and b) i'm meeting some cool peoples. this kinda makes me happy
trying to get back to school seems like it's taking forever. i knew it was going to take time (i estimated about a year) and even though this year is going by fast the things i have to do get there are taking forever, mostly because it involves money and i'm not making it as fast as i would like. and now it seems more important than ever that i have to get back to school because my little sister who will be graduating from UF in the spring just got a job offer for $60,000 a year. that doesn't mean i'm not happy for her or jealous of any way (in fact i'm ecstatic that her hard work is paying off and she really deserves this) but it definately makes me think where i could be and what i could be doing if things didn't go off course. i know i can't dwell on the past, only work towards the future but i'm stuck here in the present.
it kinda feels like i'm trying to run a race with cement shoes. everyone else running past me as i struggle to take each step.
well that's enough nonsense from me for one night...hopefully i'll be less lazy about blogging and update this thing more often. not likely but it's a nice thought
let's start off with life in general...
things are ok
that's it...just ok
for everything negative that's been going on there's been an upside to it which hasn't made things better, only evened it out...hence the "just ok"
i have been upsetting myself lately but it's mostly just stupid nonsense and for fear of sounding emo i'll spare the details of it for now.
something completely different....
i'm generally very quiet in chat unless a few select people are in chat but i'm noticing lately that i'm more talkative. it's not necessarily because i'm being more outgoing but because different people are talking to me now which i kinda like because a) i'm kinda shy and won't normally talk to people unless they talk to me first and b) i'm meeting some cool peoples. this kinda makes me happy
trying to get back to school seems like it's taking forever. i knew it was going to take time (i estimated about a year) and even though this year is going by fast the things i have to do get there are taking forever, mostly because it involves money and i'm not making it as fast as i would like. and now it seems more important than ever that i have to get back to school because my little sister who will be graduating from UF in the spring just got a job offer for $60,000 a year. that doesn't mean i'm not happy for her or jealous of any way (in fact i'm ecstatic that her hard work is paying off and she really deserves this) but it definately makes me think where i could be and what i could be doing if things didn't go off course. i know i can't dwell on the past, only work towards the future but i'm stuck here in the present.
it kinda feels like i'm trying to run a race with cement shoes. everyone else running past me as i struggle to take each step.
well that's enough nonsense from me for one night...hopefully i'll be less lazy about blogging and update this thing more often. not likely but it's a nice thought
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waterfordman:
You need to do some updating
You need to do some updating 
ultimatelewser:
Hi ya!