mego

I am so freakin cold. We just spent 2 hours outside in 31 degree weather hanging up christmas lights. It looks really pretty...but I can't feel any of my toes. Take the good with the bad I guess.
I keep having dreams about people that I cremated. In my dreams they are dead, but they talk to me...kinna like a fucked up version of 6 feet under. One I have a lot is I am about to cremate this kid (I cremated him last may, he was 14) He starts asking me where he is supposed to go after I put him in. I tell him that I dunno, and I spose that it is really up to him. Then he asks when he is going to see his mom next. I tell him that she "isnt on my list" He sighs. And I put him in.
They arent really scary dreams, just strange. All of the people in them are actual people that I burnt. I wonder if it is just my mind f'ing with my dreams, or if they are coming back for a lil chitty chat.
I miss my job. It rocked. I still havent heard word about the new job, they said they would be making a desicion sometime next week. Grrrrrr I want it.
Peas
Meagen