The past couple of months have had minute atmosphere as my partner and I have been living off of one wage, due to my job at brisbane private being forfite. Actually I got raped in the ass twice from them, the second time, I was to be aiding with a full time security roster there through another company, that is until, 'New Management', happened..

Five days before I was due to start, BP pulled the plug. So here I am back in the same shit hole that I started in.
Though I will have some weekend work happening as a crowd controller, it hasn't eased my stress, infact, the opposite, adding to the 1000 or so giant knots in my neck and back.

Round and round the merry-go-round I go.

I'm so lucky to have Jakub, sometimes I stop and think, why is he hanging around, I'm just pulling him down with me, with my financial and depression etc. issues. But he has stayed with me the whole way, and I am so thankful that he is there just before my long fall onto the sharp stallecmites below. I swear they have my name engraved all over them. He is always there, though, and always will be. That makes me cry in relief and happiness.