megean

I wrote this after I ended an abusive relationship with the person i loved most in my entire life. And just read it for the first time after I wrote it. I can't believe how...insightful i was into my character. It's funny how you can look back on things when you've been over them for some time. Anyway...Chad, if you're reading this...which i doubt because you're poor and don't have access to a computer, and if you did, probably wouldn't go near this site 'cause all your friends know i'm on it...this was about you, but not anymore, because you don't deserve a glance from me anymore. let alone feelings:

"I smell his scent on my body now. Or maybe its my scent and I never realized it. Maybe I confused myself. Wanted to believe that we were one person. That I was loving, fucking, breathing and sleeping next to myself. There were some times when I wished that I could be alone. Now I wish that I werent so alone. It feels horrible. I have to fight my own monsters, but I dont know where or what they are. Even if I did, I wouldnt know how to kill them. All through thateven If I succeeded, it wouldnt get him back. Sometimes I believe that Im crueler than life. That feeling hurts. Everything hurtsespecially now.

Megan said I had a different accent. I couldnt tell. But I know life is changing again. I can only dream for the better but it will probably be for the worse."

I'm so happy i don't feel this way anymore