megean

Sayuri, my female chinchilla, died tonight. She just started frothing blood out of her nose, and stopped breathing. I tried to give her mouth to mouth, but it didn't work. Oolie's so upset...he keeps running around his cage, trying to find where she is.

I didn't think i'd be as upset as i am...i've only had her for less than a month...but i can't stop crying. It hurts so much. I guess when you lose something that's an integral part of your life...you realize you've taken for granted that it's been there...and it's the absense that hurts.

I couldn't bury her because I live in the city and there's no real ground other than the park across the street and the children play there...i wouldn't want them or a dog to dig her up...so i had to throw her away like some rubbish in a plastic container. I'm past devastated. And i wish that this bullshit would stop happening to me.