Saturday Mar 08, 2003

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today's random thoughts:

-human fascination: only this race would conceive to put something inside a globe of water...and not have it DO anything

-finally, i am in love with someone for his mind. not his tattoos. but he would never feel the same about me. frown

-walmart is the mall for white trash...they go there to check each other out and shop for "fashion."

-i'm getting a tattoo on monday of my kitty's initails. (S.I.D.D.) miao!!

-oil spills are actually pretty. too bad they're toxic.

-i need alaska and maine again.

-megan needs to fix her clock and stop calling me so early.

-i think i broke my finger after punching my car window out. because he doesn't love me back. (stupidstupidstupid)

-i'm lonely

-i feel more like a boy than a girl. i cry about that. i want to be pretty but i dress and act like a man. but i don't want a penis. i'm crying right now. sometimes i wish i could be different.

-denny's sucks

-i want ruffle-butt panties.

that's enough for now. i can't see the computer screen through these fucking tears. and i blame everything on my period. mad

and to make matters worse, megan just called me and told me that sarah puke is hanging out with her tonight. i hate everyone. frown
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nykonnlc:
Hey i know that most peope hate it when people say cheer up when they are feeling sad. So i won't say "cheer up". oops kinda did

Walmart = puke

Dont be so hard on yourself either, if you like someone for their mind, and they don't feel the same way about you for yours, then forget about them, they aren't worth it.

you say you want to be different? just be how you want to be. beauty is in everyone, it just takes the right person to see it in each and everyone of us. I know plenty of girls who most would say are "pretty" but i could not stand to be around them for more than 5 seconds because of "who" they are. Just be happy in yourself and find the beauty and you and if you know what you like about yourself then others will see it too. This is weird too because i should probably listen to my own advice because i often don't follow it, but it is what my mother used to tell me and i am starting to beleive she was right. So just surround yourself with people that do see the things in you that you want to see, and you will, if you surround yourself who don't deserve your time it will just make you feel worse.

I am also getting initials on my arm this week. I am getting my mother initials NLC on my inner forearm in like a cool gothic type i think, i was thinking asaind symbols but they might get old fast. i am not sure because i am also working on another tatoo i want to get on my upper arm/shoulder that is going to be about my mother and am not sure if the initials on one arm and then maybe again with the other tatoo will be too much, but i guess i can keep them out of the other one.

hang in their, don't let life get you down too hard.
africa:
see, if you want ruffle-butt panties, then you can't be a boy, so don't worry. *gives a biiiig hug*

i have a funny story about walmart. do you remember when that dale earnhardt nascar racer dude died?? well, i was at walmart the day he died with friend of mine, and i was putting on dale earnhardt caps and pretending to be white-trash be an ass, and i couldn't figure out why everyone was staring at me with these shocked looks an their faces. only later did i find out that he had died that day...oops.

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