megarose

the previously ham turned out fun. it was a nice meal. i had to freeze most of it because it was more then we could ever eat.

i feel like i'm half asleep sometimes. days just fly by with little to no memory of what happened. i'm in a terrible mental funk and i need to get out of it. i was thinking of taking up running. i've always wanted to run but was to heavy to do it comfortably. now that i'm thinner i'm afraid to exercise and lose more weight but i'd also like to be healthy. i guess i need to let go of the idea that this is my body now and i need to keep it healthy.