megamisama

so buffalo wild wings karaoke was intersting. i ended up getting really really drunk andriding home in the bed of a pickup trunk .. in december...i mean its fucking cold...but the ride made me dizzy, and so i ended up throwing up in my bushes and on my front porch (blah) and was insainly hungover all day thursday.
yesterday sucked, last night sucked, i ended up being at work for about 12 hours, and had to go to the bar to find a ride home. where my ex showed up, and we had a couple of long very emotional talks. we ended up going to dance, and we danced for about 6 songs, all of which were very emotional songs...like smashing pumpkins, NIN and stuff, so it was very angry depressed emotional violent sexual dancing. it was strange, wonderful, sad and everything else in between. well i ended up crying alot. as usual.
i really really just want to see him at least once today...because if i dont, i feel like i'll be going into the new year blind and confused.
my hair is pink and black now, and its really cute. it hasnt been pink in a million years. so i love it, thanks to the beautiful lauren
who loves to make me beautiful!

happy new year. im sure this ones going to be strange.