meesha

I CANT BELIEVE THIS BULLSHIT!!!!!
here i am sittin here feelin MISERABLE bout my ex....i have mentioned this before that i have been depressed because i miss her terribly....we broke up because i was the TOOL that was afraid of my feelings toward her....this was the very first time that i had ever felt this way toward someone...me 33 her 21......how could i have fallen for someone of her age....i was the puck ass bitch that RAN....i ran so fast and so far that i left her in the dust.....
i hurt her......realizing that what i did was immature i tried to gain her love back.....but i truly LOST OUT!!!!
i work with her on occasion....not exactly with her per say but with her non the less...i see her when im at work and it kills me.....
well for the past week or 2 i havent seen her.....she hadnt been to work...so i asked a mutual friend if she had heard from her and she told me that she had been sick....so what did i do.....? i wrote to her...askin if everthing was ok and how how she had been....what i get in return was all is good.....im tryin to get my medic shit together and finish school and my time has been consumed with my NEW GIRLFRIEND!!!!
talk about SHATTERED!!!!

WTF!!!!

i am so pathetic.....how can i let this woman own my heart.....
i have gone out on dates with random people tryin to get her out of my head and to NO AVAIL.....it just doesnt feel right.....it didnt sink in until today when i read that email.....

it IS OFFICIAL!!!! she has moved on and so must i!!!

goodbye nan......

i will always have a special place for u in my heart!!!