medusaq

i sewed the bee onto my favourite black v-neck jumper, in a place that isn't always visible, but surprises people when i gesticulate or hug them. bee! with black and yellow thread to keep its integrity.

& good call on the lyric finish. i'm going to think about you and sex and bees as the holy trinity from now on.

visit, yes. well, no. but i've begun packaging. it's going to be a little scrapbook of my life at 3am unfortunately.

[Edited on Jul 13, 2005 9:20PM]

oh no! do you think my accent has changed the way i say tater tot? i certainly don't say pop anymore.

or dinfrent

all i can say right now is hugs.

i wonder why we are always on the same level. my anxiety has been out of control for days. except, i sleep too much rather than not sleep.

i wish you could take a holiday for your birthday.

poor lulu and poor you. i wish i was there so you weren't so alone. please let me know how it works out.

wow, you'll have lived 1/4 of a century come the 17th. you have a lot to look forward to. when i hit 25, my liver failed and i think i lost a lung. at least i still have my teeth, but now i live in england, so those will probably be next to go. probably the day i get my british passport. just because you can't have good teeth and be british. and it's true. i know they say it's all just a rumor, but no, it's true. trust me, i know these things.

i was looking for your address today, but accidentally wiped my email inbox clean. oops. i thought it would be safe there. last time it was in my address book. which was stolen. who knows, maybe the theifs will send you a birthday gift. if they send you my glasses, could you send them back to me? i could really use them.

seriously though, drop me a line with your magic digits on it. and what do you want most for your birthday?

ps: i can't do a new car, private jet, perfect partner, or un-ending glee. although i wish i could.

and *big hug* (with out patting)

I can't believe you are siding with the terrorists.......

i wish i could come over and make you feel less lonely and less depressed. are you in need of some meds? or is it something else?

i think you are lucky to go whitewater rafting. wish i could come with you.

i'd rather have blair as a prime minister than bush as a president. at least blair doesn't say something stupid every single bloody time he opens his mouth.

i see saul williams on your artists list. i saw him at nin. he was amazing. i'd never heard of him before and it was a bit ghetto racial political for the nin crowd, but he was warmly welcomed and his poetry melts me.

i should read ishmael.

i can't stop reading.

i just want to talk until your loneliness dissipates...

I hope you are doing ok

thanks for your call today. i wasn't expecting one from you at all, and it makes me very happy that you took time out to check in. i know that it wasn't a good time for you, with the work situation and all. thanks so much.

its one thing when it happens in another state. its another when it happens a few 100 feet from your house.

love you.

just like john donne said, ask not for whom the bell tolls... it tolls for thee. only rather than being about death we can make them be about doing good things for other people.

yeah.

i'm sorry. i should have been more free with the sex. if i only knew then what i know now...

Pah. Rainwolfkin is a girl - the only thing she could beat me at would be at knitting or ironing or something to do with housework

Sooooooo, you want to be stolen and smuggled in to my little castle in Jersey, do ya? Hmmmmmm

*hunt's around for a suitably-sized suitcase in which to put MedusaQ*

nice color on lulu.

i never thought that one day you would have a lisence and a car, and i would have neither.

please post photos.

i'll be thinking of you at the show today, sending out energy across the ocean. dont forget to be receptive!

Oooh oooh ooooh you have a new car! A brand spanking new car, not one with a hundred squillion miles already on the clock. Does it have that 'new car' smell still? (Or have you ruined it by....ummm.....'christening' it )

You realise, of course, that all of a sudden you are going to become the designated driver and unofficial chauffeur for all of your mates. Ha!

Anyway, we want pics! We want pics!

i'm sorry that jeremy freaked out. but i am happy that you guys are still friends. you 2 have shared a lot in your lifetimes and that's a good thing. its not a good thing to be so far away to someone who is so close if you get what i mean.

sometimes i wish the same for people in my past, but sometimes i just think that people change too much and the people who i once knew aren't the same people anymore. and i haven't shared anything with the people they've become.

this life thing is so complicated i'm not sure i'll ever figure it out.

i hope that searching for a new car is going good. if we ever see each other again, we should definately set a car on fire (preferably not one of our cars), just for old times sake.

i;m such a lucky lucky girrrl. Kinto just offered me a free ticket to a festival in london tomorrow. and guess who i'm gonna see???? --> Tegan and Sara.

I just noticed that his shirt says "Kid Icarus" on it. That's rad!

of course this is easier than finding someone new.
but then, this urge to "move on" and "find something/one new" is, imho, something unpleasantly capitalist and cosmopolitan at its heart.

i see nothing wrong with hanging out with him, and i disagree with MRO's cynicism. a couple of my closest friends are exs. and we've never ending up back in bed (do there! *pokes tongue*).

and yet, there is truth there also. remember that you have, for whatever reasons, moved apart from oneanother. when we rediscover someone from our past it is all too easy to slip into our old ways of living with them...

hell i don't know. i'm more confused and over-analytical than you, so i don't think i'm the best for advice.

what everyone else would say to me:
stop analysing it and go with the flow. just be careful.
what i would say to myself:
i think- no, wait. actually don't. no do. but maybe...

sod. now i'm confused...

(he seems cool. and lovely.
even if he is a God-Lover...)
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