my job backed out of letting me go to help evacuees, so i had to back out from helping the red cross & the hands on network. it sucks & i feel helpless. but i can't lose my job, as much as i've been looking for a reason to tell them to fuck off. i know i'll find ways to help without going to an...
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rainwolfkin:
Dusty
i'm going to Mississippi or Louisiana Sept. 14th through 21st to volunteer with the Red Cross along with a handful of other AmeriCorps alumni & some friends...we'll be building tent cities, delivering water, helping to feed people...& we'll be living with them in the tent cities...
...even though i'll lose a week's pay & i'll have to pay exorbitant prices for gas to drive there...i...
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...even though i'll lose a week's pay & i'll have to pay exorbitant prices for gas to drive there...i...
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rainwolfkin:
i love you because you have the constitution to act on your honesty. i think you are beautiful.
while i am hoping that the people in distress find their situation growing easier, i have to admit that i am seriously concerned with the wider implications of this disaster. i sincerely hope that the american nation can learn something from this and re-evaluate their priorities.
while i am hoping that the people in distress find their situation growing easier, i have to admit that i am seriously concerned with the wider implications of this disaster. i sincerely hope that the american nation can learn something from this and re-evaluate their priorities.
aeg:
I'm in Vegas, Baby, Vegas. Hung over, and I really hate it. I'm never drinking again. Until I have this cocktails meeting in about 15 minutes.
a response to rainwolfkin's rhetorical, yet hopeful, questions...(since i'm too lazy to type anything for my journal):
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satisfaction comes in brief moments, i believe. i don't think it's really possible to make it a state of being, so it's not something from within which you can become stagnant.
i think that when you're truly living in the moment - breathing cold air, smoking...
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satisfaction comes in brief moments, i believe. i don't think it's really possible to make it a state of being, so it's not something from within which you can become stagnant.
i think that when you're truly living in the moment - breathing cold air, smoking...
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rainwolfkin:
curiosity is the only thing that keeps me alive most days
me too. and its the type of curiousity that just won't let me sleep at night. crawls under the skin and made a permanent home for itself, nestling somewhere close to my pituitary gland.
why is it that your words always hit dead centre. i certainly value everything everyone else has to say, but they always hit the periphery. that's fine, gives me new perspectives - on how to view things in my life, but also insight into theirs. but your words are just like my own. ...still - after all these years.
how do you do it? it must be another of your superhero powers. i do love you.
ragdoll96923:
heY! glad to see you back!
thankyou for the beautiful journal entry.
I'm searching for satisfaction but not letting myself have it.
I'm so tired of running in endless cycles.. circles.. all just to please someone...
thankyou for the beautiful journal entry.
I'm searching for satisfaction but not letting myself have it.
I'm so tired of running in endless cycles.. circles.. all just to please someone...
i'm baaaaaaack.
i've missed you.
i've missed you.
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rainwolfkin:
i love you so much! am so so happy to see you back! such a nice surprize for me today. god, i'm selfish. 
ria:
hurrah!!!
welcome back missy
welcome back missy
i have a girlfriend. she is the grrrl we call Concussion.
brilliant plans laid
by mysteries
come to me
all without asking
i could love this girl.
& i will not be afraid.
brilliant plans laid
by mysteries
come to me
all without asking
i could love this girl.
& i will not be afraid.
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rainwolfkin:
you should be jealous. i insist that you get your ass moving and at least see some of this gorgeous planet that we are on. you and any member of your soul family are always welcome where ever i am at. i'd love to see you.
mygoddamnradio:
Haven't seen you in Locos yet!
living in fuzzy.
i keep losing shit, forgetting things, dropping things, & am generally underwater in this...it feels pretty good, regardless of the fact that it got my phone run over...
i really like her. that's all i've got right now. i just wanna touch her, kiss her, cuddle her...know her. i'm so fucking disgusting. ha.
funny how i freely use the words "i love...
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i keep losing shit, forgetting things, dropping things, & am generally underwater in this...it feels pretty good, regardless of the fact that it got my phone run over...
i really like her. that's all i've got right now. i just wanna touch her, kiss her, cuddle her...know her. i'm so fucking disgusting. ha.
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rainwolfkin:
i would love it if you come. its probably more affordable than you think. just come in january when prices are super low and stay with us and dont spend much money while your here. everything is outrageously expensive, i can't imagine you'd want to buy any of it when you can get it for 1/4 the cost in the US.
you should quit smoking because i love you and don't want you to die of cancer. your mind is a powerful thing. you can use it to help you stop. it worked for me. i hate cigarettes now. (and the niquitin lozenges--for when you really need one).
is everything ok? i hope you are still floating.
you should quit smoking because i love you and don't want you to die of cancer. your mind is a powerful thing. you can use it to help you stop. it worked for me. i hate cigarettes now. (and the niquitin lozenges--for when you really need one).
is everything ok? i hope you are still floating.
ria:
quick <3
i'm gonna call the girl Concussion now, because she doesn't want her name on here. fame -- so much to be concerned with...or maybe she's paranoid.
so yeah, Concussion. i really like her. unfortunately, nothing i say can be original right now. one of the down parts of falling for someone is the lack of creativity that ensues. happiness & infatuation result in shitty, cliched...
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so yeah, Concussion. i really like her. unfortunately, nothing i say can be original right now. one of the down parts of falling for someone is the lack of creativity that ensues. happiness & infatuation result in shitty, cliched...
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rainwolfkin:
yeah, well, we pisces are the shit like that.
sinope:
Thanks for commenting on my new set! Glad you liked it 
i talked to jeremy a few days ago & told him that i just want to be friends...he took it pretty well, because we both know that it'll be a long time, if ever, before we can stop shouldering our baggage from the past when we interact. we have a new friendship to build before anything is safe.
i am so tired. up all night...
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i am so tired. up all night...
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ria:
out of anything, sleeping with people has been a goodness this year. just sleeping, snoozing, close physical contact in rest and doing nothing but laying there. yeah.
friends sounds good. really good.
friends sounds good. really good.
mro:
I am envious of you. I am glad you have found someone like Caroline
thank you to those who sent me birthday wishes! it was a pretty happy birthday despite tummy troubles (which beer & cigarettes surely don't improve...) 
life is such a jumbled, disorganized & misorchestrated show. i don't know when to sway, when to jump up & down, when to find a seat...closer to the stage? further away?
for 6 months i didn't notice anyone interested in...
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life is such a jumbled, disorganized & misorchestrated show. i don't know when to sway, when to jump up & down, when to find a seat...closer to the stage? further away?
for 6 months i didn't notice anyone interested in...
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rainwolfkin:
i'm so glad that you put your sears family portraits up. 
rainwolfkin:
they make me smile
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papaspank:
I like the second painting. and um happy birthday!
rainwolfkin:
my mind doesn't file that memory as happening during july. i'm a bit mixed up in that department though.
i think i remember you taking pictures of me while i was sleeping. it was a long drive.
i think i remember you taking pictures of me while i was sleeping. it was a long drive.