i want to go somewhere. but i don't want to leave the house.
and, anyway, it often seems that there is no where to go. the only places to go require consumption.
and that's aside from gasoline. i like nature. but i'd have to drive to find some.
unless i wanted to BUY food (restaurant) or BUY products (shopping), i will be driving to nothing....
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and, anyway, it often seems that there is no where to go. the only places to go require consumption.
and that's aside from gasoline. i like nature. but i'd have to drive to find some.
unless i wanted to BUY food (restaurant) or BUY products (shopping), i will be driving to nothing....
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rainwolfkin:
i love McSkeleton.
ghostina:
laziness grabs me everyday. you will definitely have to come visit me someday while i'm all unemployed n stuff. 
and i dreamed that i had a baby last night. by my ex girlfriend.
it was as big as a one year old after a day or two. i was scared i'd drop it on its head. i think i did once.
then my girlfriend left us for another woman.
i looked at the baby & felt amazingly happy & overwhelmed with love and i...
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it was as big as a one year old after a day or two. i was scared i'd drop it on its head. i think i did once.
then my girlfriend left us for another woman.
i looked at the baby & felt amazingly happy & overwhelmed with love and i...
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rainwolfkin:
well, i just wrote a huge long monologue about what it might mean, but then i erased it thinking 'thats crap' what the fuck do i know? i'm not the mental health care pro, or psycho-therapist or whatever. i only took one psych class in college and i dont even remember attending it...
i'd love to be useful, but perhaps am just useless...
i'd love to be useful, but perhaps am just useless...
rainwolfkin:
well, i have to say that i think the only thing toes are really useful for are to be played with. and yeah, i liked it when you played with the toesies.
i have added lots 'o photos & such in my PICS section. i demand that you look at them & tell me what you think. ah hem. please. 
i.
mirage of my making.
mirage of my making.
ghostina:
hi...
inside a crumbling masterpiece
sometimes i remember you
incorrectly
leaning over me with your fist
through my chest
pulling strings behind my back
winding the clock backward
so it's never time to go
you sold your backpack
and sat still
cross-legged meditation
on the wrong side of my window
the inside
i paint when i am lonely
i stopped keeping a journal
i talk to...
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sometimes i remember you
incorrectly
leaning over me with your fist
through my chest
pulling strings behind my back
winding the clock backward
so it's never time to go
you sold your backpack
and sat still
cross-legged meditation
on the wrong side of my window
the inside
i paint when i am lonely
i stopped keeping a journal
i talk to...
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i drink too much. i am drunk. i like drinking. but when it's done, here i am...alone. my friends are sleeping. together. & i am fucking a computer, too fast. i like you. come over. i need to be cuddled & told how fucking hot i am. i need another person in my bed. i need a conversation that reminds me why i haven't died...
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ria:
so much my feeling atm.
medusaq:
why is it that the people you seem to need most at any given moment are often the furthest away?
it relieves me to feel understood...why is that comforting to me when things are still the same?
find a way to be here. please. someday soon. i want to be near you...
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it relieves me to feel understood...why is that comforting to me when things are still the same?
find a way to be here. please. someday soon. i want to be near you...
[Edited on Feb 19, 2005 10:06PM]
[Edited on Feb 21, 2005 11:37PM]
okay. i'm a bit better now. i figured it out.
animals are smarter than machines. told you so.
i love you rainwolfkin...all of this is for you...
animals are smarter than machines. told you so.
i love you rainwolfkin...all of this is for you...
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rainwolfkin:
so very glad that you got your journal set up. i've missed you. 
johnfm1:
Is there a strap-on involved in those pictures?
i am annoyed because i thought i knew something about computers, but this fucking thing won't compress a damned thing and all my photos are a kuhbillion kB. FUCK! i'm screaming and conversing with a machine. again. i hate "civilization".
but i love my rainwolfkin: climb inside my mouth, i want to swallow you whole. or take me away from this place. there is...
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but i love my rainwolfkin: climb inside my mouth, i want to swallow you whole. or take me away from this place. there is...
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codemonkeym:
Wow, those are some hot photots! 