Wednesday Apr 13, 2005

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i have been somewhat happy for 3 weeks.
i am scared that it's about to crash & burn in front of my very eyes...and even if i am the pilot, i don't really know how to fly, but somehow i have my pilot's license...the person in power rarely deserves it.

in the meantime, though, i've been excited about living.

i'm reading a book called "the most evil women in history". i like it. but was surprised to find my name wasn't in there.

i recently had a revelation:
i no longer WANT to be in a relationship.
this is the first time i've been able to say that & actually mean it. it's not that i'd necessarily turn away a beautiful connection with another person, but i certainly don't seek a relationship. for the first time, i'm perfectly content being one. alone.

and i like friends. i shall set forth & make more. aye. ARRR!!!
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rickets:
Three weeks isn't too long to be happy. Three uninterrupted years maybe, but three weeks is normal. I don't think you're due for a crash & burn yet. At any rate, good luck.

Rickets the Clown
mro:
The blackouts weren't good blackouts
And they didn't feel nice
I bumped my head
When I fell over twice
blackeyed

I still debate there is a huuuuuuuuge difference between being one and being alone but, regardless of my own argumentative thoughts, I am so pleased to hear you say you are happy. I hope it lasts for a long, long time, moreso because your pretty face doesn't suit being all miserable and frowny.

Oh, and you see the last few pages of your book about evil women? The ones which have been left 'intentionally blank'? That's a chapter reserved for your life, that is tongue tongue tongue

kiss

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