medusaq

all of you should plan me a surprise party & come make me fucking smile, dammit! i need attention! rrrrrruuuuhhh!

and also:

fuck today.

what a waste.
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rainwolfkin, i really wish i'd heard my phone ringing. i had music on too loud. now i'm crying again.

i feel a dull throbbing, tearing pain everywhere.

your words made me feel happy & i'm thankful that you wrote them, because i needed them right then. i don't know how to do this...

i want to die. not in a melodramatic way, but in a way that comes from not feeling the energy to be. from feeling alone, permanently trapped in here, no one with nails strong enough to scratch their way in to keep me company.

and here you come, too far away, but still closer than before. it's tearing me apart knowing this...

i scare myself.

"something i can never have". trent wants me to slit my wrists...