Hi everyone! Has been a hard year
Some of you know me a little better, some not so much, but I feel the desire to talk about it, cause maybe my experience could help someone.
when I was 13 I got a recovery for anorexia and then unfortunately bulimia that lasts until I got 21. While I was in the hospital I got some test and get diagnosed with borderline disorder.
I knew it and at the time I thought the diagnosis perfect fit me.. but now, that I’m older, and I spent more than 3 years in a center that treat especially borderline disorder in order to fully recover from it… i didn’t got any significant improvement in my mental health and with my therapist we decide to get me a differential diagnosis in a different center That (apart personality disorder) treat also different diseases that have different causes.
It turns out that my nervosism, my headache, my short memory and my bad self esteem are made not from my childhoods traumas but from my atipical brain.
In the end I got ADHD and Asperger diagnosis, that probably, thanks to my childhood traumas got me building up a borderline personality, so I got hospitalised, I spent money I got medicine for the wrong problem.
Now I know a lot of things more about me.
I know that I’m not normal, that it’s not a choice to not be able to communicate with strangers, that’s not my choice to get nervous when I’m overstimulated and that definetely it’s not being lazy to not be able to complete normal daily life tasks.
I understand that I’m full of love, but not able to share it; that I’m extremly creative but absolutely not able to be practical whit easy things.
now I’m starting a long journey to understand who I am and how to manage my adult ADHD and Asperger life.
Would be long, probably, and I will need to externate it to accept.
in my new year I want to speak and bring it outside… I want to make information cause I have a voice that 70k people could hear. I think it’s really important cause, I don’t know in your country but here, in Italy, no one know about ADHD, not if it’s not connected with an elementary school kid, but hey 👋 We exist.
We are Adult not being diagnosed when we were child and we deserve to know it, cause our life can really and completely change after know that our brains are simply different.
We are not stupid, we are not strange, we think too much, too fast and in two different region of our brain.
by the way, I really hope it could help someone
❤️
@penny @sean @missy @rambo
