Hello my SG Brothers and Sisters,
Sorry for the delay but of course life always seems to get in the way! Well yesterday I turned 29 years of age, and I'm not going to say I feel old but I am starting to feel a difference. Well yesterday night I was so bored I found myself searching through facebook pages of old High school friends and old acquaintances. The more and more I read the sadder and sadder I seemed to become about my life. Now I'm not saying that I'm comparing my life to theirs, but there was one common thing that I noticed. Most people all seem to have some life altering moment in their life that seemed to help guide them through whatever came next. Few people climbed the tallest mountains, One person meet the Dali Lama, a bunch went to war, and even more started families. This is not to say that I haven't had a good life! I mean, I have a good job that I can be proud of, a family that really loves me, and friends that I can truly trust. However for some reason I still have this annoying numbing feeling deep down inside me that feels like I have no guidance in my life. I'm stuck!
Many of my friends tell me I just need to get away and experience life, I need " to find my self!" Not to mention, where do I go to, and for how long before I find focus and clarity.
I admire people like Rexx who can just say " I'm leaving for a road trip for the next month, with no plans and no expectation!" " I go where the road takes me!" WHAT??? Are you kidding! How do you pay bills? I mean I would love to leave, but I have loans, bills, and general needs that require a job! HOW? At least for the past 6 months I've been trying to plan a trip to Egypt, because I've always wanted to go! However each time I get closer and closer to my goal of leaving, there is always something to knock me back down and push that dream back. Not to mention that I don't have anyone to experience this great trip with! I guess I'll just have to meet people on the way, that could be fun! Maybe it's time for me to explore, learn not to care as much! Lower my stress, well it doesn't help being frustrated, if you know what I mean!!!
Anyway Rexx whats your secret?
Am I the only one that has this gut feeling that they were made for something more!!! Why do I feel lost?
Forgive the rant but it's hard not to get worked up about that problem! Well at least I did get a chance to walk around Fort Stark, in Portsmouth NH to clear my head! Well so I thought!!!! As I'm walking around this small park and historical site, I was able to grab my camera and snap a few photos! Unfortunately a lot of the photos didn't work out to well because the state of the old fort I was shooting was a complete mess! I don't understand what the mission of the historical society truly is! For example, Fort Stark was one of the first Forts in NH around 1805 to be build to protect Portsmouth harbor from invasion. How currently the fort is falling apart and run down, all in the name of historical preservation. Bull crap! I feel the mission of any historical society should be the preservation of historical data and the education of our society! Wouldn't it be better to fix/rebuild a historical site so I and my future kids can see how they lived and learn from lessons obtained the hard way! Rebuild it, shows us what it was like to walk in their shoes, and live their lives! Don't let it fade way!!
While I was at the Fort I was able to snap a few shots and I will post them below!! Camera time is also killing me because with limited funds and limited time it's hard to get quality shutter time. I am hopping next week to get some camera time with one of my friends who shoots nude models!! I would like to eventually move to shooting models, but first I need more equipment, more time, and a little education to point me in the right direction!!
Well I think that's enough from me!! I cant wait for Rexx nex set so please go check it out!!
Thanks for listening and keep on smiling!!!
Cheers!!!!!!
Fort Stark
Area around the fort!!
I hate how small i had to make this just to fit it on here! but there it is!!!
Sorry for the delay but of course life always seems to get in the way! Well yesterday I turned 29 years of age, and I'm not going to say I feel old but I am starting to feel a difference. Well yesterday night I was so bored I found myself searching through facebook pages of old High school friends and old acquaintances. The more and more I read the sadder and sadder I seemed to become about my life. Now I'm not saying that I'm comparing my life to theirs, but there was one common thing that I noticed. Most people all seem to have some life altering moment in their life that seemed to help guide them through whatever came next. Few people climbed the tallest mountains, One person meet the Dali Lama, a bunch went to war, and even more started families. This is not to say that I haven't had a good life! I mean, I have a good job that I can be proud of, a family that really loves me, and friends that I can truly trust. However for some reason I still have this annoying numbing feeling deep down inside me that feels like I have no guidance in my life. I'm stuck!
Many of my friends tell me I just need to get away and experience life, I need " to find my self!" Not to mention, where do I go to, and for how long before I find focus and clarity.
I admire people like Rexx who can just say " I'm leaving for a road trip for the next month, with no plans and no expectation!" " I go where the road takes me!" WHAT??? Are you kidding! How do you pay bills? I mean I would love to leave, but I have loans, bills, and general needs that require a job! HOW? At least for the past 6 months I've been trying to plan a trip to Egypt, because I've always wanted to go! However each time I get closer and closer to my goal of leaving, there is always something to knock me back down and push that dream back. Not to mention that I don't have anyone to experience this great trip with! I guess I'll just have to meet people on the way, that could be fun! Maybe it's time for me to explore, learn not to care as much! Lower my stress, well it doesn't help being frustrated, if you know what I mean!!!
Anyway Rexx whats your secret?Am I the only one that has this gut feeling that they were made for something more!!! Why do I feel lost?
Forgive the rant but it's hard not to get worked up about that problem! Well at least I did get a chance to walk around Fort Stark, in Portsmouth NH to clear my head! Well so I thought!!!! As I'm walking around this small park and historical site, I was able to grab my camera and snap a few photos! Unfortunately a lot of the photos didn't work out to well because the state of the old fort I was shooting was a complete mess! I don't understand what the mission of the historical society truly is! For example, Fort Stark was one of the first Forts in NH around 1805 to be build to protect Portsmouth harbor from invasion. How currently the fort is falling apart and run down, all in the name of historical preservation. Bull crap! I feel the mission of any historical society should be the preservation of historical data and the education of our society! Wouldn't it be better to fix/rebuild a historical site so I and my future kids can see how they lived and learn from lessons obtained the hard way! Rebuild it, shows us what it was like to walk in their shoes, and live their lives! Don't let it fade way!!
While I was at the Fort I was able to snap a few shots and I will post them below!! Camera time is also killing me because with limited funds and limited time it's hard to get quality shutter time. I am hopping next week to get some camera time with one of my friends who shoots nude models!! I would like to eventually move to shooting models, but first I need more equipment, more time, and a little education to point me in the right direction!!
Well I think that's enough from me!! I cant wait for Rexx nex set so please go check it out!!
Thanks for listening and keep on smiling!!!
Cheers!!!!!!
Fort Stark
Area around the fort!!
I hate how small i had to make this just to fit it on here! but there it is!!!
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