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Isn't it Friday YET??? This week has already been hell at work. Everyone is flaring up at me, it's ridiculous.

I have three days off next week. WOW. I won't even know what to do with myself.

I am sure I'll think of something naughty.

It's been 33 days with no drink or drugs. so far, no murders. I do need to get my ass...
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sober. wow what a trip. I haven't broken to the temptation yet. I wish my husband would let me go to meetings. Not that I've adsken and he's said no - he would say 'do whatever you want' but if i took 10 minutes longer than he thought I should gettin home from a meeting - it would be all bad. I have...
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UP EARLY!!

I can't believe I am awake so early, but it's kinda cool because I can do lots more stuff than I normally could in the AM.

Gonaa do my taxes today. Hope we get some loot back so I can do some paying off of my billski's.
I also want to get my star tat set up for the 1 year anniversary next...
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I wish I could grow up. I feel like I can't control my emotions sometimes - or that I can, but I choose the WRONG way to react to people. I guess the trick is to catch one self before reacting and saying something stupid and THINKING about the right and wrong ways to react to a particular situation.

Yes, I think I am having...
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I can't believe I'm 30! It feels much better than 22 did, which up until now was my best birthday. I have much more of a sense of who I am and I am much more confident. I thought I was confident back then but I think it was just cocky and opinionated.

I realize thatthere is so much more in store for little girl...
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feeling a bit better today. i took a pto day off work, so i'm gonna try to hit a meeting.

I am struggling with jealousy lately. I think i've had more time to think about stuff and I am all depressed, so pity just falls right into the mix so easily.

Oh well, knowing is half the battle like G.I. Joe said, right?

Going to...
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Feeling SUPER shitty and like i am fucking worthless. yup that's me. I haven't had a drop to drink since Jan 5 and don't plan on it. I just need a bit of kindness. Especially at home.
Give me some fucking credit already. I know it's only been two weeks, but I haven't gone more than two days for a long time.

FUCK THIS SHIT...
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Having a great day, had a couple of pissed off clients, but I managed to turn em around pretty quick. I didn't even think of drinking today.

I hope that I can keep this frame of mind. I feel like it's getting easier every day.

My hunny is asleep (passed out) on the couch, he's had a real long day. My birthday is saturday so...
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just checking in...
still clean (going a bit nuts intermittently). Bust my resolve is still strong. The support and love from my husband and and friends is awesome. Gotta love it...strength in numbers.

Anyway, gotta jammm.

blew.

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it's been awhile since I wrote. Sorry for bieng flaky. I am taking another shot at staying sober....so far it has been 7 days
I am just tired of trying to deal with life and 'take care of business' while eiter bieng intoxicated or suffering from the effects of alahol.
It hasn't been really hard. I have been reading a lot, and drinking...
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