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Well I have found a new reason to live. (Besides wonderful family and SG of course),I am going to get HEALTHY!!!

Right now I have a BMI of 38. Yeah. Apparently, I could die of a weight problem. My mother has been diagnosed with diabetes (weight controlled) and there is heart disease in my family.

I just ordered two really cool workout DVDs. I am going to work out every day when I get home for the next 3 months. If I still weigh 240. Yes, I know.

I have taken many diet pills over the last 4 years, and the result was that my metbolism is all jacked up. I basically need to move my ass (and the rest of me) as much as possible in order to kick it into high gear.

I have a camping trip this summer and I want to look hot in a bikini. Yes a bikini. Not a bikini top with a towel wrapped around my ass, I want to jump, run, dive swim without feeling self concious.

I am going for a goal weight of 180. This may take me up to two years (based on my eexxtraaa sloooww metabolism). I am willing in order to feel good about myself and make sure that I am healthy enough to see my kids grow up.

Sorry if this is depressing, but I am actually quite inspired. I would love (and will) be able to walk into any store and buy a pair of jeans that are a regular size. I've got a big but and hips by nature, so I am not sure if I'll ever get into a size below 10, but I would be very happy to be a 12.

Anyway, I plan an posting my progress here. Stay tuned and wish me luck. Hell, I may even show up on the pink pages someday...

Thanks to those who have accepted my requests for friendship. You guys are very cool and I hope to get to know all of you.

Have a swell week all!!!