mctavisch

I know the feeling. It took me a long time to really be functional again after my last big break up, and it never completely goes away. You just sort of learn to live with it until you find someone else to focus your attention on. But it definitely sucks.

Even a couple years later, I found myself the other day picking old scabs for no reason and I looked her up on Google. Haven't talked to her or even really thought about her in over a year and a half. Turns out she ended up with the guy she swore was just a friend (swearing that because I asked if something was going on between them... yeah), and they're engaged and moving to England. She just immediately jumped into it with this guys after more than 5 years with me. Threw me for a serious loop. But by the end of the day I was over it, and my only real concern became "Why the hell did that bother me so much?"

Anyways, good luck man. I know it's rough. I've been there. I recommend turning that self-destructive energy toward something a little more constructive, though- like working out. It hurts, so it fills the urge, but once you're becoming functional again you'll notice you actually did yourself a favor.