warning really awful and mixed up entry so i split it into parts:
happy dorkiness part:
eee! i'm giddy with happiness. i've been locked in my room for a few days watching, you guessed it, more buffy, since for new years i restarted the entire series for the nth time, i'm finally in the middle of season six, and i just watched the musical. the episode gets me every time... because like all good dorks i have the soundtrack to the musical and know all the lyrics by heart, not that i don't know most of the episodes in general by heart, but this is music and buffy all mixey together, and it makes for lots of smiles. it's a good thing too because i've been mopey all day. i can't stand this funk. it's starting to eat away at me, i fill journal entry after entry of woe is me crap that i hate.
awkward part:
my friend that moved back, a few months ago, that i mention occasionally, moose as i call her, her boyfriend came for a visit... a nice awkward visit. not only is this a chick that i spend nearly everyday with, but is the same girl that i used to semi date, and a whole bunch of weird high school things... and yea. i'm glad there was minimal contact with him because i just don't know what to do, or how to act; not that he doesn't seem nice enough.. but because on the one hand, she's one of my best friends, and i love her to death, and on the other hand, i still get envious and jealous of the fact that someone is with her... and she's so happy with him... so in turn the guilt for not feeling more happy for her for being happy.
confused part:
besides those funny feelings with her there's all these i wonder if dusty's ok. i found out that he was in some kind of accident and is in bad shape and it makes me want to jump over my huge grudge i have and write him, and make sure he's ok... because with the love and the really unorthodox version of a relationship we used to have, and then with the not speaking and falling off the face of the planet i live on... well anyway you can tell there's been too much buffy for me lately because my vocabulary and patterns of speech are reflecting... sigh.
i would say tomorrow but technically it's today already, school starts up again. i'm just not really ready for it. it's completely discouraging; but on the bright side of life, it's only 8 weeks... we can be grateful for condensed semesters for they make my life much more bearable. too bad i'm not tired and i have to be up in a few hours to swing by the bookstore before my classes to pick up all my books since i've been too lazy to actually go for the past three weeks; such is the life of a procrastinator...
Molly
"they got... the mustard..... out... they got the mustard OUUUUUTT!"
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american_exile:
yep, i used the hook up feature and found you. and because Im the kind of person that usually doesnt say hi to strangers I thought Id break out of that particular pattern and do just that, So, Hi. How's that school thing going for you? Ha, we're both closet harry potter fans. anyways, yeah. 
nonameninja:
I think the letter is a really nice idea. few ways to make your self look like a nice person...or be one. you could still be evil on the side if you wanted to.