it's only a few more hours left until i leave this place... and yet it seems as though it will not happen. this is the last friday i'll ever spend in california... the last time i'll ever have to be here...
i would say i'll miss it, but i won't for the most part. i won't miss eating dinner alone because i have no friends left. i'm not going to miss having to pay a small fourtune for everything.
but there is this sadness for stupid things, like going out when i wanted to, even if that meant going out and doing something alone at night and fearing that i'd get raped and mugged.
but i won't miss these people... these souless people.
i thought i could heave my heavy box of everything that won't fit in my suitcases to the MUNI stop across campus. to my disappointment, i got 1/3rd there and after dropping the box every few feet, and the sweltering sun, which had been hidden by rain the whole morning, beating down on me i was about to burst into tears. dozens of people passed me, looked me in the eye, nodded, and walked on by. i couldn't believe it. no one would help me. i finally got to the Humanities building and broke down, i stood there for a few minutes admiring the new set of blisters that had popped up on my hands and heaved the thing back to my room. when i got inside a guy that used to talk to me, smiles at me sweating a storm, and looking as though anymoment i will burst into tears, and pushes jokingly on my box.
these heartless bitches...
there is an earthquake expected to hit california in august, ranging up to a 7.4 and for all i care i hope the fucking state breaks off into the ocean. which according to oceanographers will happen in a few hundred thousand years but i mean now. like poof: august: ... there goes california.
i for some reason am going to walk to the mall to buy new flipflops with the girl that betray me and left me after all the promises in the world that we'd be friends for a long time... a girl whom it makes my stomach knot to think about too long... i really must be a masochist or something. well we knew that, but whatever. ok. so... here goes nothing...
the next time i post, i will be in Germany again... god.
i would say i'll miss it, but i won't for the most part. i won't miss eating dinner alone because i have no friends left. i'm not going to miss having to pay a small fourtune for everything.
but there is this sadness for stupid things, like going out when i wanted to, even if that meant going out and doing something alone at night and fearing that i'd get raped and mugged.
but i won't miss these people... these souless people.
i thought i could heave my heavy box of everything that won't fit in my suitcases to the MUNI stop across campus. to my disappointment, i got 1/3rd there and after dropping the box every few feet, and the sweltering sun, which had been hidden by rain the whole morning, beating down on me i was about to burst into tears. dozens of people passed me, looked me in the eye, nodded, and walked on by. i couldn't believe it. no one would help me. i finally got to the Humanities building and broke down, i stood there for a few minutes admiring the new set of blisters that had popped up on my hands and heaved the thing back to my room. when i got inside a guy that used to talk to me, smiles at me sweating a storm, and looking as though anymoment i will burst into tears, and pushes jokingly on my box.
these heartless bitches...
there is an earthquake expected to hit california in august, ranging up to a 7.4 and for all i care i hope the fucking state breaks off into the ocean. which according to oceanographers will happen in a few hundred thousand years but i mean now. like poof: august: ... there goes california.
i for some reason am going to walk to the mall to buy new flipflops with the girl that betray me and left me after all the promises in the world that we'd be friends for a long time... a girl whom it makes my stomach knot to think about too long... i really must be a masochist or something. well we knew that, but whatever. ok. so... here goes nothing...
the next time i post, i will be in Germany again... god.
switchcomb:
Have a safe flight!
emma35:
yes have a safe flight,,
I would have helped you..... :\ hahah pooof it's gone...that'd be funny. or something. I'm so tired work is hell. glad you will be in germany again soon. I'm sure you will feel much better once you get back home.
I would have helped you..... :\ hahah pooof it's gone...that'd be funny. or something. I'm so tired work is hell. glad you will be in germany again soon. I'm sure you will feel much better once you get back home.