mcroger

Jesus, my eyes are killing me which is a bit annoying and I would usually just sort this by wearing my glasses but as I have been wearing them for days I don't think thats the problem. Its a real pain the ass, having compromised vision. I mean, Yea, I look hot and much smarter because I wear glasses and my frames are deadly and RED! but it is quite the irritant. Its worse then having allergies or being one of those types that burns in the sun and can't leave the hotel for the whole holiday. It's happened to me so many times "why can't you come out?" "because my eyes are sore!!!"... riiiiiiight!!!... but NO REALLY my eyes hurt too much to leave the house. Fucking GAY!
Maybe I just need some tea...
Two shakes M'loves...

I really make the BEST tea, I do. My dad taught me so well.
So, Apparently Mark thinks I will return from London and to TNS by christmas, charming. See, this is typical of the likes of Mark and my parents and some of my friends. I haven't even left yet, I haven't even had the chance to fuck it up and they are already predicting I will come running home, crying about being upable to manage without them all because I can't make it through the day without ringing one of them to bail me out of some problem I have landed myself in. This is a complete fallacy. But the thing of it is, if I were to say meet the love of my life in the next four days, I'd still have to go to London. I couldn't just change my mind, just for him, I couldn't because I have to prove everyone wrong now... do you see what I mean? WHY does everyone have to have an opinion and WHY must they insist on telling me every chance they get????

Kenneth and I went down to my primary school and it has changed so much. It was quite upsetting (I didn't cry... HA!!!!) but it might be nice to be 11 again and know what was ahead of me and be able to make informed decisions. I wouldn't have made quite so many mistakes. I wouldn't have done fashion, I know that much or made friends with all those fuckfaces.
But hindsight is a wonderful thing and I don't really believe in second chances. I think I stopped giving and recieving them when I was about 17 so now I just have everything that is ahead of me and my stars are always telling me to stop living in the past which is why it is so important to move away. I'd like to explain this to everyone without having to go into detail but I cannot so I will just let the masses continue to speculate on how long I will be gone for...

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Rob thinks I have fallen in love. Rob would be very mistaken. I am much smarter then that...

Later...
Love...
Suzannah...