mcroger

Oh jesus christ tonite, its christmas eve, I can't wait for christmas... I'm so excited like a child. This year, we have no christmas tree, it has made things a bit sad... we just are obsessed with christmas but no tree this year.
Last night I went ice skating, it was such fun.
then I went to messers, it was good til He came and he comes the whole time and I am so confused and I wish, at my birthday, he hadn't been so nice to me and I wasn't such a mess...
and he looked so stunned and so pretty when I was talking about being pregnant even though I'm not now and he looked disappointed and I only wish thats what it was but I can't tell.
And everytime I tell myself I don't care and I can be without him, but can I, can I really...?
I just don't know...