mcroger

S'up, S'up, S'up...
So, I had my christmas party on Friday, it was really great. I love TNS, I will miss it when I am gone. Myself and my friend Elizabeth spent hours readying ourselves, we truely did look the part, all 1950's, it really was such a splendid night.
I met Johnny my old supervisor from back in the day TNS, he is going to design my website because I can't do it myself... He is such a winner. I danced and drank white wine spritzers and carlberg all night.
Niall didn't go, I found out he was supposed to as I lay in Allan's bed...
I do not regret my decision to sleep with Allan, not for a second, I never will. I do however wish it had been protected...
I can't believe I didn't take my own advice and the advice of Kenneth, I say it to everyone "ALWAYS use protection" and I, WE didn't.
Later I will recieve a lecture from Elizabeth and tomorrow, one from my doctor-Doctor O'Sullivan and then Kenneth and the next day my friend Tara and my friend Ciara will be so disappointed in me, what with her and her own unexpected pregnancy.
Yesterday morning, I was suggesting baby names to Allan, if it's a boy we're calling him Rider and Anabel for a girl, Rider or Anabel may not tan well because Allan doesn't and I do. Rider or Anabel will be so intelligent and funny and sensible (unlike their parents) they will be artistic and have great taste in music and films and be sporty, they will be beautiful and precious and grow up to be whatever they want to be and be successful and make Allan and I very proud and happy...
But we will never know if this is too be so because tomorrow I will sort it out and tell Allan and we will both forget in time and move on and he will become a brilliant Barrister and I will own my own clothing company and design frames for glasses and all kinds of things and marry Dan the lumberjack man in Wisconsin and Allan and I will have a fine life without Rider or Anabel...
But still...
I can't help wondering...