Lately I've been a little in the dumps. Here i am a 26 year old workaholic single guy surfing through facebook and it appears that everyone i know is either married with children, engaged and expecting or just blasting through relationships like its an endless game of chase. Then theres me. Forever single. Binge watching Netflix and stuffing my face with pizza and beer like a high school girl coming off of a bad breakup haha! man card revoked! But then i realize that for all these years i have been alone, its been by choice and in that time, never once did i attempt to know myself. I have just been allowing my existence to linger in doubt and fear rather than experiencing who I am to become. This is funny to me because through out the years i have always been a positive influence on those around me but i myself am full of negative thoughts towards myself. So much time have I lost. For so long have I allowed my consciousness to be suppressed. I have forgotten who I am. I have been on auto pilot for nearly a decade. I wonder what will awaken within now that I am aware again.
