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mc_escher

straight outta SoCo! Cotati, CA

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Saturday Sep 18, 2004

Sep 18, 2004
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dear god! can it be?! a brooding soliloquy about how girls make me crazy and self-loathing? the original was alot longer...

it's a pretty familiar cycle. i meet someone and we become friends. we hang out alot. i start to drown in her eyes and think she's everything i ever wanted finally. it's hard to breathe under the weight of it. but she has other plans. she just wants to be good buddies. so i rip out those feelings like weeds. i grasp at her flaws and magnify them. i destroy all the evidence so i can eat and sleep again. and at the end i'm dazed and numb.

it's hard to tell where i am on this circle. right now origami and x-files are doing a surprisingly good job of keeping me sane.

one of my friends back home had an accident and is now quadriplegic. my problems are so small and stupid.
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