mc_dove

not much to report. suprise trip to a Death Cab For Cutie concert the other night, which was fun and suprising in all sorts of ways.

so. i feel like a different person since my last entry. i think this is what they mean when they say "paradigm shift."

weird stuff, friends. i feel like i did when i lost my virginity. sort of nervous and excited and oddly calm at the same time. a new declaration of my status as an adult and as a woman.

have you ever wanted to fuck up your life just so you could see things differently for once? there are days when i crave the destruction of all the things i hold dear for the sole reason of seeing what sort of person i would be after it all settled. i sort of have a love affair with thanatos.

i dunno. all i know is that things are weird, and that i feel scared, but i'm ready to fucking rock it.

*air guitar*

up Falling Rock Hill where the leaves swoop like bats
i shot my brother William five times in the back
"have mercy, have mercy, dear brother," he cried
but the wind has no mercy and neither did i

i watched as his blood ran through dead grass
i watched as the black ants crawled through his hands

up Falling Rock Hill, the wind softly moaned
and down, down came i with blood on my clothes
cicadas were hissing and the whippoorwill called
but the earth didn't open and the sky didn't fall

up Falling Rock Hill, the wind softly moans
and black ants they crawl cross my dear brother's bones
wild, red roses tangle the grass
where William, sweet William, his blood once ran

through the dead leaves i walk marked with blood
and wherever i step the night creatures run