mayita

Lonely never felt this way. Its wierd that after living with someone for nearly a year being alone feels more lonely than before. Latley I've been thinking if moving back home was the right decsion that leaving him was right. But I dont think about him in general just not being alone. Its the worst. Coming home to an empty house and sleep alone is like, nothing I've ever felt. These past couple of days i've been spening time with someone thats just here to pass the time, you know all those things gals say about guys how they are pigs and just care about sex. well this is him. Loves his girlfriend but yet has the nerves to say I have lips of an angel and LETS HAVE SEX... JESUS Christ . HElp me. the sad thing is Ive been feeling so lonley latley I feel myself giving in. Im fighting back with every fiber in my being and the fiber in my being is slowly detiriating by the day. Hearing sweet nothings in my ear is making me go crazy. and GOD I know its just a piece of ass but ive come this far in life not giving up a piece of ass......Im so fucking pist at myself for Kissing him in ther first place, but dam if that kiss wasn't so fucking good. I hate being lonley. It doesnt make any dam sence working all those dam hours if at the end of the dam day Its still the same empty house and empty space next to me. ON a lighter note. I did someones hair and makeup today and it made me realize how not satisfying my job is right now. God i wish I could start my own plus size clothing line. I WOULD SO ROCK THAT SHIT>