maybes_smashing

nearly every time i'm left alone, i find something to bring myself down about.

currently, it's my academic career. i've moved around too much. i have no faculty relationships. i'm just now starting to build my vita and i've overloaded myself. i don't feel like i'd make a good candidate for any grad school.

and the thing is, i've done a lot. i just spread my interests out. i've coded and maintained my own website for the past five years. i've got literary publications. i've done gallery exhibitions with my photography. i've even got photography credit on an album! but none of these relate to my field and therefore cannot be included.

gr. i just feel like i've got myself spread too thin trying to cover school and research and volunteering and working. shit, i'm only working three days a week now and i feel terrible. kat's still working five and i don't think it's fair. money's hard to come by. plus, we bring in maybe $2,000 a month at this point and i want to buy a car next week? i don't even have clothes that fit me anymore!

i'm whining. so i'll stop.

EDIT, 7:16pm: my set got rejected.
EDIT, 8:31pm: i just uploaded it. what do you think? what did i do wrong? what did i do right? like i said in sg hopefuls, i've got three months to figure out whether or not i want to do this again and how to do it right.