mayarix

I looked over the initial printed proofs for the 100th time tonight. I shouldn't do this to myself. I have my doubts. While I know it's better than some I've seen, I feel like it's not enough.

Nagging doubt. I've lived with this for a good portion of my adult life, as has everyone. I'm a bit of a perfectionist. I love the way I look and I hate the way I look at the same time. I'm still determined to submit it.

I am hoping to be surprised but remain very cautiously optimistic. Understand: submitting a set is submitting yourself to a lot of public scrutiny, and while comments from others is encouraging, I sometimes feel like they might be insincere and premature. "Oh I'm sure you'll make it" when you haven't seen the set?

I am my own worst enemy. I need reassurance from a reliable no-bullshit source. Heh. I should show Viv. I'm preparing to face rejection, but hoping for the best.