mayarix

*sigh* You know, life is awfully bleedy boring. I've realized today, as I sat on the couch watching TV, that life has settled into a really hum-drum mode. I'm grateful to announce I have no drama in my life again for the time being. But I'm really needing something bad to just liven things up.

I hung out tonight at the Zone with jeanka and Kamu, both new friends from SG.com. We just chilled for a while, talked to kamu a bit, and then left and went elsewhere. Oh, it turns out that a certain someone is not done with me quite yet. FWB, I suppose. Well, we are best friends, and don't stay apart for a long period of time before catching up becomes necessary. We sat in his hot tub, laid in his bed for a while and spoke of things that best friends speak of.

Bryan says there's a lot more than just "best friends" in this relationship. And honestly, I would agree. We care for each other a lot, even if he is in a relationship with someone else.. I look past it. I understand that he loves her as well and the way that we are is different than the way he is with her. (shrug) What's there to say about that?

I started working out again. My good friend Gunther Peterson and the crazy core fitness ball. I'm going to be sore. I can feel it. But it's a good thing. I need to shed some inches before the big shoot coming at the end of next month.

I need to stick with it because I need exercise anyways. I've been in low-maintenance mode since September of 2006. For reasons that I won't supply here. But now I'm growing restless. I think that the whole Suicide Girls photoshoot thing stems from the deep-seated need to be challenged and dared and pushed beyond my norms. Yeah, kind of extreme, but damn it, I look good and won't be young forever, ya know?

All I know is that when you grow stagnant in life, you get repetitive stress syndrome emotionally. I am a Leo born in the year of the Tiger... I was built to walk a bit on the wild side.

That is all.