mayara

turned away, in disgrace
felt that chill upon my face
cooling from within


I'm so happy... my hunny will be here in about 25 days now... and he'll be here until FORRREVAR! I'm just ecstatic.

No more languishing over loneliness. No more yearning for his touch. No more fucking wondering when we're going to manage a visit next. No more goddamn flying in airplanes. No more, no more, no more.

I'm also kind of sad... I don't feel that I have any friends in Ohio. I lost touch with my best friend, who I knew since middle school. She always had difficult living situations... I let too much time pass without calling her... and now I just don't know where she is. I'd love to see her again. I'd just be happy and bawl and hug her, and we'd talk about everything in the world. That's never going to happen, though, it's halfway tempting to scour Hilliard for hours looking for her. All I know is she used to be a manager at White Castle, haha. And the likelihood of her being there for two years is pretty nonexistent.

I don't need friends nearby, though. Give me people to talk to with just text and I'll be happy. I have e-friends all over the freaking planet.

Which brings me to another thing... I don't seem to mesh with this site. Maybe it just isn't my niche? Maybe I'm just used to being so well received elsewhere? (Game forums, a prominent Everquest 2 fansite I do some moderating on and a server forum I co-administrate) ... I don't know. I don't know why I even update here, really. I think I'm just waiting to see Solaris's set still. Damn SG, post that shit so I can let my membership lapse.

Okay, I like to babble...