This is the really first time that I talk about this thing, maybe because I reached a thought in my mind, for sure is because I feel safety here in this community.
Sometimes I think to be horny, maybe I really am, but at the really end is just a thought.
Do you know that time that u really want something but when u have it...u don't feel at home.
I love play, I love sex, I went in one stand adventures but I never was happy (maybe 1 or 2 times, maybe half); I know in my mind that I'm not a "bull" and I'm not a "one stand man", not because I don't want, just because I can't.
Sometimes I can't control the desire and it go to fuck me. Horrible situations where u wanna be alone immediatly after orgasm, but u are not.
I need to stop it, make stronger my mind. I always respected women, I don't need to lie for have something, but I never respected myself: in that situation I feel really impotente and at the end is just for make real what is my mind.
I can't live "sex only", I need more, because just in "more" I can feel at home.
I'm not living my sexual life, I'm just living the others sexual lifes and this is stupid. Every man dream about have sex with beautiful women, but mine need to start to remain a dream.
I'm feeling so stupid and without energies right now, as I done something horrible to me for the "Xth" times.
How can I be that stupid? Maybe girls are right that men think just with dick? I start to believe that I'm really not that special one that I thought, maybe I'm just the stupid one that I never thought.
Feeling to cry, without tears.