This is the first place I have written this, not sure why I chose to say it here, but I don't know where else to put it or even who to talk to. I have been pretty depressed lately, like more than I ever have been in my life. My mom is dying of a lung and heart disease, she has been in and out of the hospital a few times over the last month, we all know it will kill her, but is anyone ever ready for this to happen? It's hard to watch her struggle, and it's hard to know you have to face what is coming.

Also, my best friend accused me of sleeping with his wife, which btw never had and never will happen, I wouldn't feel right about sleeping with another mans wife or girlfriend, that's not me and never will be. What sucks is that he cheated on her, so maybe he is now paranoid? Anyway it hurts and is a shitty situation, because now it's just weird and awkward.

I also have a disease called Ménière's disease, which makes me dizzy and have vertigo and just overall feel like dying, I recently had to give up driving, which is hard as hell. I honestly have to keep laughing or I will just break down.

So now that I have probably made you depressed as well, I am sorry. I didn't mean for it to be that way, and I am not looking for pity, I just wanted to get it out, no one needs to comment on this, this is therapeutic for me, I may delete it soon. If you did read it, thank you 😘🙂