maxk

I feel as if I am going fucking insane! I hope none of you ever have to deal with a parent or someone close who is slowly losing their mind--mostly, because you will lose yours!

I heard there is often collateral damage of caretakers who try and help those who are losing their memory, and now I am find this out first hand.

At times my mother acts more like a five-year-old sister who finds devious ways to antagonize me repeatidly despite my attemps to beg her not to annoy me on purpose. And I swear on all that's holy, I believe even in her present state, somehow she finds joy in trying to get my goat.

I don't know what made me think I was qualified to deal with her or what possesed me to fly back home to keep an eye on her. My brothers don't deal with her on a daily basis, and they don't believe me when I tell them what is going on with her.

She follows me around like a little puppydog. I have no privacy, no quiet time. And pretty soon no sanity.

I hate my new job. I hate the fact all of my fiends are in LA. And I hate my life at home, and have no life outside of my home.

I fucking can't stand this!